Me, myself and I.


Hi. I get jealous easily because what's mine is mine. I feel that I'm not good enough for anyone because there are so many better girls out there. I'm sensitive and a little insecure. I act like I don't give a fuck because I care too much. I hate how I let my emotions control my behavior, and how I have to pretend everything's okay. I over analyze the smallest of things and come off as a bitch to guard myself. I shut myself down and have a war with myself frequently. I don't live my life to please you, so don't judge.


"Pamper me like a princess and I'll promise to be your good girl."

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Back when Eoy's over.

MIA,
Am going on a short hiatus till Eoy's over, 11thOctober.
I seriously need to mug hard for this cause it's my streaming year.
So yeah, although Im only left with only 16days, Im still gonna chiong and strive.
Bye for now my fellow readers! Goodluck for your Eoy if you have too! Please continue tagging too, ty! :D

Withmuchluvs,
Dorcas.Lte, 김종현 ftw. (L)

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

There's always a little pain behind every it's okay.

Shall say that today was quite awesome! I finally went to a lan, HAHA. Okay I know Im very out and stuffs, but I'd always wanted to go and I finally did today! Thanks to Trina and Yihan :D . So my maid woke me up today at 7.15 cause I told my parents to send me to school. But they're too early, and Im too tired and lazy to get myself up, so I slept till 8am then chionged to school. Met Trina, Yihan and Melissa at Dawson's busstop, then walked to school for extra lessons.

Literature was first, boring! I've been chatting away with Trina, thanks to her I kept myself awake. Haha I forgot to bring my foolscap which I wrote "김종현 Kimjonghyun" duadua at the back, damn sad. So I drew it on my bio pink booklet, HAHA. Literature ended half an hour earlier cause MrsDass need to go some meeting, yay. Bio was next, MsViknes came earlier. She droned on and on, and only half of what she said goes into my head :( . I really need to concentrate, but I cant cause was super noisy zzzzz.

Bio ended at 11.30pm, immediately 111-ed to 313 with Trina and Yihan. Went to Heeren's Mac for lunch first, we talked alot hee. Changed, then walked over to '313' HAHA. It was actually Cineleisure! HAHA, took neos then went up. $3.90 for an hour, so ex. But cause of audi, we decided to play. BUT THE WORSE PART COMES, there's no audi there and we didnt know, bastard. Suay suay, I go see the notices, coincidentally got patch. Walao, waste my $3.90 zzz. Plus no msn there so I cant do my stuffs wtf. So I got no choice but to play SA, hahaha.

Decided to go JCube for audition, so mrt-ed to DhobyGhaut. $2 for an hour, and the keyboard's SO SHIOK. Omg I want go there again! Super fun, so many people playing audition, then blast music till sibey shiok haha. I did 180bpm's cfm! Thanks to that keyboard! OMG DAMN HAPPY. Hahaha, I want that keyboard!!! Session ended at 5pm, mrt-ed to Harbourfront then 166-ed back home. No one's at home cause everyone went to cousin's house, alone. Was rather shiok k heeee. Can blast music and stuffs LOL. Kkkk anyw I havent finish my homework damn. Lazy to do. And YES, I WANT TO GO JCUBE AGAIN! :D

Day 3 — Your parents
(K this, you guys are allowed to see and stuffs. I whiten it just for a reason.)
I dont know what to say. I love them, but yet at the same time sometimes they really are very annoying and irritating. Sigh, sometimes I think that they're really biased towards my brother. I dont like it, seriously. And yah, I think they're very unreasonable as well. I totally have no privacy, they check my texts and everything. And wtfh is wrong with texting and going out with guys? Not like they'll rape me -.- . Gah, but still, they're still my parents, right..? :/

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

KimJongHyun. ♥

I can officially say that Im obsessed with KimJongHyun from SHINee :D . He seriously is damn hot okay, gosh. So anyw, today went on a study date at Yihan's together with Cheryl, Trina, Melissa, Gene, Nicky, Xinwei and Zhihao. I reached at 12.30pm, waited then went to meet the rest. Waited for Xinwei and Nicky for like 1.5hours, they reached at 2+pm. Siao one k, super late! HAHA, reached Yihan's at 3pm. Ate, studied. K I didnt really study cause I finished my work. Hee this is the first time I finished two pieces of homework during the first day of holiday :D .

Left at 5.30pm, went to Vivo for dinner. Kfc-ed with Trina, Yihan, Gene and Zhihao. Left, 166-ed home. Reached home at about 7.45pm, tv-ed then bathed then comp. Audi-ed for awhile, gah my skills seriously drop. K tomorrow going out with Trina and Yihan hopefully. Cause the rest cant make it D: . Plus got extra lessons in school in the morning. Hahaha so yeah, Im gonna sleep now.

Day 2 — Your Crush
(K so anyway Im gonna whiten it. And I know many of you would wanna know what's the whiten part. Seriously, if I whiten it means I really dont want to let you all know right -.- ? Anyway, if any of you manage to read it, be it through source or copy to somewhere else or whatever shit things (I know you're guilty), please just shut the hell up and dont ask me anything or gossip around about this thing because, I seriously just dont want to tell you all. -.-)

I dont know what to say about him. I dont know whether it's or just a pure childish infatuation. Stupid me, fml. 17months already, Im still waiting for you. Though I know I cant, but seeing you happy just made my day yah. Anyway, I just hope we can remain best buddies, cause now you're like my only person I tell secrets to. Well, I wish you happiness alright. Cause seeing you happy, just makes me happy..

Friday, September 3, 2010

Eoy, Im counting on you..

Yay, last day of school already! Like finally manz. School was okay today, Im 90% chosen for Shandong trip! The good thing is, whole clique is going, woohoo! Yes, happy ttm. Got back report book today as well, I didnt dare to see it at first. Till Trina and the rest made me muster up my courage, thanks peoplee. I saw, I jitao cry. Gah, why am I so dumb. Stopped, needed to clear the stuffs. Asked around, and I really realised I did so damn badly, sigh. Thought of that again, and why people asked me to smile and cheerup, I teared more. LOL, yeah Im just that dumb, sadly.

After school, clique was talking about it. And suddenly I just peng, cried like siaozharbo. Sit there like those kid lost their parents, gah. I really did SUPER badly, teared for like 15min, thanks clique for comforting me (L) . Went for chinese supp, was released early. Went to find clique, then slacked to wait for Cheryl. Ate, then Cheryl came, and we bus-ed to my house for badminton. Played like mad, vented my anger out. Was kinda okay already. Homed at 5+pm, watched HelloBaby, gosh. Im loving Jonghyun like mad. Show you his AWESOME HOT AND CUTE PICTURE ^^ ;

CUTE OR WHAT. Hot right!! Heeeee. I ss-ed this picture (Y) . K so watched finished episode 4 and 5, Key is back in Ep5! Hehehe. Told my mum my results in a joking manner, she amazingly replied me jokingly too. Hoho Im lucky. But seriously Im have to study, need to study, and must study. Eoy is my only hope now, I gotta work hard. :D

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Happy Teacher's Day.

Teacher's Day holiday, Im rotting at home man. Bored like crazy, dont feel like doing homework as well. I wanna audi, yet kept dc-ing and lagging. Anyw yesterday was awesome, 2A got champs for the dance, shocking though. Had fun in school, hehe. After school went to Bugis with Cheryl, Melissa, Trina and Yihan, Yanhui cant make it :( . We shopped, bought clique tee, and I bought another checkered shirt! The previous one was too big, so I got another smaller one. Went to take neos then, the neos were awesome. K so I really need to study. Oh yah I failed Lit, how amazing, stupid. I really dont wanna see my ppr results. And yeah, I got tagged my Kimberly to do the 30 Days Challenge thing, so uhhuh, doing it now. ;)

Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Actually, I dont believe in this kind of what best friends thing. I think, true friends are most important. And yah, I dont know if I have any true friends cause y'know in this world, everyone will always be wearing a mask and stuffs, and that's just life. Who knows one day you tell this friend a secret, and she go around telling people, backstabbing you. And who knows your so called good friends betray you? So, I dont believe in it. Im still waiting and finding my true friend, heehee. But, if you wanna say the longest friend and so far the most trustwothy friend I've had, it's Kimberly Yeo, that bitchy sissy twinles of mine. I love her, like duhz.