Me, myself and I.


Hi. I get jealous easily because what's mine is mine. I feel that I'm not good enough for anyone because there are so many better girls out there. I'm sensitive and a little insecure. I act like I don't give a fuck because I care too much. I hate how I let my emotions control my behavior, and how I have to pretend everything's okay. I over analyze the smallest of things and come off as a bitch to guard myself. I shut myself down and have a war with myself frequently. I don't live my life to please you, so don't judge.


"Pamper me like a princess and I'll promise to be your good girl."

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

A leopard never change its spots.

Just afew more minutes to December, the start of a very new month! New month, new beginning, that's what they always say. But I think otherwise, don't you think every month is just like the previous, where the same old things happens and life still goes on? Hahah, although yeah most of us wants a new start but it's not really possible to me. Alright, so I spent my day just like that, boringly. If this continues, I guess I will be a fungi when school reopened thanks to it rotting, LOL. K so I woke at like 10.30am today thanks to some idiot called Joseph, he texted and called me just because he wanted to waste his prepaid. Ass man, thanks for ruining my sleep. And you should be honoured for your name is like, in my post. Roar.

Cant went back to sleep after that already, so I turned on my laptop instead. Got so fed up with my new laptop, yes although it's new, it's as laggy, or maybe worse than my previous one. What's worse is that the keyboard sucks apparently, it can't detect some of my keys, amazing. Urgh, so I used my old laptop for almost the whole day, cause I wanna audi as well and this laptop doesn't has audi so yah. Believe it or not, I DID ANOTHER 188BPM CFM!! Omg happy die. The most cool thing is that cause I wasn't even concentrating that time as Im like talking to Joseph & friend. LOL, miracle huh! :D Changed back to new laptop, using it now. Yeah and I think Im going out tomorrow with clique, woohoo! To Bugis, looking forward yah. ^^

Saturday, November 27, 2010

Singapore's still the best.

Im back from China! :)

Hi people! Yeah, finally after 10+ days Im back from China. Omg seriously Singapore is like still the best and awesomest can. Especially when you compare their toilet with ours, totally a very very big difference. The trip was quite okay and fun, because it's with my clique. Many memorable memories came from when I was with them, hehehe. The trip made me realise alot of stuffs also, be it good and bad. But it's alright, I still remembered I xiasuay-ed myself like ALOT of times okay, omfgz. I dont miss China, thats for sure. But maybe I miss jiaojiaojie, our tourguide. She's super friendly can. Hahah, I love Singapore! :D

Monday, November 15, 2010

And it's not a short period of time..

Tomorrow night! :) Im flying already, hehehe. 10 days in Shandong, with clique! Omg Im so damn excited. My luggage is not ready, so not, HAHAHA. Im like super lazy to pack please. No idea why I dont have the damn sense of urgency. Anyw when Im in Shandong Im sure camwhoring like mad! Esp. in the hotel with my beloved Trina! TRINA HO SEE THIS, YOU BETTER BE GLAD HAHAHA. Omg Im laughing LOL. K anyw, Im sure Im enjoying this trip okeh! Camwhoring is gonna be so damn fine! HAHAHA.

Anyway today was fine. Went school early morning to meet teacher to rehearse our presentation, then headed to comp. lab. Suppose to rehearse but we started facebooking and everything. Yeah then met the rest at Koufu, then back to school for another briefing. Ended at about 2.45pm, ohyah we got our jacket! Then went to citylink to buy stickies, wa I tell you the people there damn sociable and friendly! Hahaha, damn cool k! Homed at about 5pm, chionged yu le bai fen bai. Tomorrow still have! HAHA, k. Im tired, and Im lazy to continue, because I got stuffs to do hehehe. Alright tataz!

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

If only Im a little kid again.

Didnt update for quite a long time alr. Today was fine. I've been waking up at 10am these few days since holidays started. Anyway met mum at Queensway Shopping Centre at 1.15pm, I was late hahaha. Ate at Mac first then went to buy my jeans for Shandong. Seems like we ended up shopping instead, bought more than expected. Just in that particular shop mum spent $680, wow. HAHAHA, walked around, bought few more long pants for Shandong and also bought more fbts! :) To grandma's house then, 51-ed there. Cabbed back home, too tired and the stuffs we carried were super heavy okeh. Homed and comped all the way yah. 6 more days to Shandong, happy or not? I dont know. Sigh.

Saturday, November 6, 2010

The higher the expectation, the higher the disappointment.

I love this picture ttm. Hiakhiak. K so anyway today was fine. As boring as usual. Mum at first said want to bring me to expo to get new lappy but yeah, didnt. She said there's IT show in november which is like better so she's bringing me there at the end of november. Anyw Im dead bored. I wanted to stay up today but my mum force me to sleep at like 12midnight latest. Noway la! :( Audi-ed today and everyth, seriously my skills drop like some shit. Ohwell, I need to practice. And yeah, I kept thinking today's Sunday. Argh whatever. Kthxbye.

Yet another miserable day.

It's already 12+am, and Im not falling asleep. I just got home, like half an hour ago. Woke at 11am today, late aye. Prepared and everything then headed out to ecp with family, met relatives and cousins there. Cycled for awhile, then headed to mac for lunch at 2+pm. Blahblahblah, returned bikes. Left the place at around 4pm, planned to head straight down to cousin house but lazy. Homed for awhile first, bathed and I watch musicbank. Halfway through I slept, too tired. Left house at 7+pm, to cousin's house. Talked and everything, then homed like just only. Im pissed, very indeed. I really wanna vent everything man. Argh what's with life. Zzzz.

Thursday, November 4, 2010

So we dont understand each other at all.

Subject combination is back, yes Im happy. Triple science and history elective, hehe! 3A lor, sian. I like my combination, but I dislike my class, seriously. Thinking about facing the same old people bitching about you, what's there more to look forward to. Yes you know who and what I mean. Anyway school today was great, in a sense. Just collected the combination results, so how worse can it get? Laughs. People cried, people smiled. But whatever it is, this' life. LOL, k Im crapping. And also, if someone made it to 3A but he/she isnt from 2A but from a lousier class, you shouldnt discriminate and insult him/her. Mind your words please, tyvm.

K so after that while waiting for Yihan and Trina, went over to Dawson with Cheryl, Melissa and Yanhui to buy snacks for Sentosa. They came and we bus-ed down to Vivo, and monorail-ed to Sentosa. Headed for the luge first, I didnt know they got new route! It's almost the same but well, more worthy. Went over to Siloso Beach then, went gaga with clique. Played with the sand and omg Trina's damn cute hahaha. She kept saying there's crab which kinda freak me out alittle but Im fine. Lalala, played till about 3.45pm, then went to rest and cleaned up. We used the fountain instead of the showering area, muahaha.

Slacked around at the icecream shop, shared icecream with Yihan. I tell you it's damn yummy la. After that had this moment of truth session with clique, talked it all out. At first yeah I feel damn emotional but after awhile it's alright. I thought that since it's over already why crying over spilt milk? Yeah so we kinda h2h then. Awesomeee. We found out all of our ideal man, HAHAHA. Seriously Minho is like one awesome husband to be. Left at 5.11pm, I remember the time idk why HAHA. Changed and everything, then left Sentosa. :) Hehehe monorail-ed back to Vivo, then 166-ed home. I think I really slept on the bus for like 5min? Idk HAHAHA.

Homed and comp-ed. Audi-ed for awhile with Joseph, then Lifan joined. Finished up the flyer for Jiasheng. Then my bloody printer cant print, dont know wtf happened. Plus actually say want pass him the flyer now mum say tomorrow dad's side cousins and relatives want meet at 11.30am at east coast park for cycling?! AM PLEASE. My gosh what's this. Ahhh sorry! :( Sigh k byeeee.