Me, myself and I.


Hi. I get jealous easily because what's mine is mine. I feel that I'm not good enough for anyone because there are so many better girls out there. I'm sensitive and a little insecure. I act like I don't give a fuck because I care too much. I hate how I let my emotions control my behavior, and how I have to pretend everything's okay. I over analyze the smallest of things and come off as a bitch to guard myself. I shut myself down and have a war with myself frequently. I don't live my life to please you, so don't judge.


"Pamper me like a princess and I'll promise to be your good girl."

Sunday, February 20, 2011

I wish I was the one who could make you smile.

Sup. Attended Trina's advance birthday party today, then headed to Vivo after that with Cheryl and Yihan. Si Queenie, she left earlier due to her tuition, roaaaar. Went over to PageOne, then kinda browse for book. Didnt really managed to see one that really caught my eye, found one book but didnt think it was to my interest so left. Oh yes Cheryl bought rice cakes from basement before that, it was niceeee. (Y) Finally tasted how korean rice cakes are like! Hehe.

Yihan left, while Cheryl and I continued walking around. Decided to dinner together, but before that went to the National Geographic store and shopshop, LOL! It was hell boring and nothing, Geog sucks muahahah. Erm so left and headed to Candy Empire, go crazy over the candies there! Bought the sour straps, Cheryl bought strawberry I think, I bought cola! Hehe, then went to food court for dinner. We both had chicken riceee, then we talked alot! From our old crushes, to current, and to stalking people on facebook, AND EVEN STALKING PEOPLE'S PARENTS ROFL.

Then I kinda got interrogated by her man, yeah. We talked about someone, and yadda yadda. I swear it was omg-ly weird. HAHAHA, she's like. "Say you love him now." And I did! I was like, "I love him." HAHAHA, damn joke. We kinda made a fool outta ourselves at food court, we laughed like some szbs alrightttt. Being with her's funnn. (Y) Talked till 7+pm, then she left while I went to find family, they came vivo as well. Yah so brother got his haircut, then went over to abc market for their dinner, then homeeeeeee. ;)

Alright, so life stinks btw. Goodbye.

Every girl wants a Prince Charming, and while he may be nice and all, I’m thinking that I’d rather have the guy that’s gonna call at four in the morning just to say hi. Or someone who will stop by my house after just hanging up the phone because he wants to see how I’m really doing, because I said I was fine, but we both know I’m lying. Or the guy who’ll stay home on a Saturday night with me because I’m sick. That guy, that one guy, he may not be Prince Charming to anyone else, but he’d be my hero. My “knight in shining armor.” Anyone who’d rather stay home on a Saturday night and hold my hair while I puke, that’s a hero.

Saturday, February 12, 2011

Sorry, I forgot you don't need me anymore.

Didnt use my laptop for 4 days, great satisfaction to me. All I do when I come home is just do homework and study for tests, busy life right. School's been so exhausting and stressful, there's practically no time to relax except for Fridays, and the weekends. Anyway, Im still 1/5 away from completing my straw hearts. I need to finish soon, urgh. Actually I have no reason why am I doing this as well, HAHA. Perhaps it's just for fun? Nah. Was actually having some kind of thought in my mind, but I know it'll never come true, so.. I'll just complete uh, for the satisfaction, hopefully.

Going for some wedding dinner later, I hope I dont get compared or anything there. But I'll know I'll just stone and get real bored at one corner, for Im the only girl among my dad's family side. Sucks alright. Worse is perhaps I may get to see black faces later and I tell you, Im sure gonna attitude back. Ohwell. Sighhhhhhhz. Life stinks, tired of it. Just went to check the new horoscope thing, IT'S SHIT. I really hope it's not true cause I dont wanna be a PISCES. I want to stay as an Aries. :( LOL. K random, baiz.

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Nothing better than you.

Happy chinese new year friends. :) It's a new chinese year, which means Im a year older, and according to the chinese calendar, Im a year older than my current, which makes me 16. LOL. So today's alright, fine. Woke up at 9am, then used the laptop for awhile. Prepared and left house for the temple at 12noon, prayed and stuffs then went down to paternal grandparents house first. My brother and I were so crazy over cny songs. We changed the lyrics and it goes, 七格隆咚呛咚呛, 姐姐吃大便. Wtf right! HAHA, then I changed to 弟弟吃大便. :) It's damn fun! Hoho.

Had lunch at paternal grandparents house, then left for maternal grandparents house. Stayed there for awhile, the atmosphere is so much high there k! :) Hehe. Then left together to west coast, my grandma's relative's house. Stayed there for like hours, omg damn tired. I almost fell asleep there, hehe. The goodies there are like high class one lor, LOL. My maid still want us to takeaway LOL WTF. Then left at 5+pm, to Jurong West. Bainian again, paternal side relative one. Left at 7+pm, headed back to maternal grandparents' house, dinnered there, then home. So Im like using the laptop now, cousins came over to my house. Hehe. :)

And so there’s this boy.
The way he laughs makes me smile, the way he talks gives me butterflies and just everything about him makes me happy. I love him. ♥