And you were so happy, with her.

Finally, I shall sit down and not give a damn about anything, and just do a decent post. It's been long since I did this, and now I shall cause I don't feel like doing anything. These days had been hell for me, yes, hell. I hate this life. Well except for the fact that I have my awesome friends, and yes, I enjoyed myself thoroughly today with zee&zooz. They're the love, they understand you, they stood by you, they lend you a listening ear and a shoulder when you're down, they give you a smile and a pat on the back when you did well, and they hug you and ensure you're alright when you just feel that you aren't. So today to bugis with the two lovelies, it was fun. I forgot what we had for lunch........ Oh yah subway!! Then went to bugis street to walk for awhile, and went back for neoprints, then to movie theater to sit down and h2h with our gelato. H2h was totally sweeeeet, I understood that life isn't always on our side (yeah it isn't already from the start) and friends also come and go. Drifting is always a will experience thing in friendship, right? Yeah so why not just live with it, and go with the flow. For some reason talking with the two of them just makes me smile. Left at 5.45pm, reached home half an hour later. I sat down and thought alot, I'd made this wise decision, to let go.

Sometimes I really wonder what exactly do life mean, and why am I here to live my life. Everything's so hectic, I can't seem to catch up anymore. I'm far lack behind, but it's okay, I will just take my time and enjoy. Yeah like real. In actual fact I'm always chasing reality, chasing what's already gone, chasing the past, and chasing your footsteps. I hate this, you know? Every night, every day, I will just lie on my bed, thinking about the past. How you were so sweet, how you were so nice to me. Your morning and goodnight texts, your morning calls, your voice, your smile. Gone. Yes, gone. Everything's gone. And what can I do now? Stalk your facebook/twitter? No. I'm not gonna allow myself to do that, I'm not gonna allow myself to experience pain again, I'm not gonna allow myself to cry over someone who isn't gonna cry over me. I know what's pain, I need to stand and pick myself up from the fall. I can't let anyone break me down, anymore. Oh fuck my life.